So it's been about 3 months since my last post, needless to say I've been busy. December and January are my busiest times of the year. There are just too many birthdays and holidays for me to even think straight! lol. Anyways. Troy had his first birthday this past weekend! It was so exciting and depressing all at the same time.
I definitely didn't want to accept the fact that my baby is growing up. I'm one of those moms that disagree with people when they say stuff like "I can't wait until ______" I always say, "I wish he would stay my little baby forever." lol. I never want him to grow up and hit all the milestones that kids do. I feel like if he does, I'll get old and die and I won't be able to see him grow anymore :/ lol.
It's odd viewing death as something I'm dreading not because I want to continue to live, but because I want to continue to see my SON live. Being a mom definitely changes you, hopefully for the best, sometimes others aren't blessed that way I guess. HERE'S TO THE ONES THAT CHANGE FOR THE BETTER :)
A little mom side-note: My friend just recently turned 21, and obviously she's pretty excited about this just like anyone would be. But the part that kind of irritated me was that she randomly texts me on a Wednesday and asks if I want to go out for drinks. Now I'm not 21, so I was like ... wtf? BUT what really pissed me off is that she KNOWS I'm a mom. It made me feel like ... What the hell kind of mom does she think I am if she thinks I can just drop everything and go drinking on a Wednesday?? I don't even WISH I had that kind of luxury. I HAVE a life, his name is Troy and I would trade anything anytime to spend one second with him. Period.
I definitely didn't want to accept the fact that my baby is growing up. I'm one of those moms that disagree with people when they say stuff like "I can't wait until ______" I always say, "I wish he would stay my little baby forever." lol. I never want him to grow up and hit all the milestones that kids do. I feel like if he does, I'll get old and die and I won't be able to see him grow anymore :/ lol.
It's odd viewing death as something I'm dreading not because I want to continue to live, but because I want to continue to see my SON live. Being a mom definitely changes you, hopefully for the best, sometimes others aren't blessed that way I guess. HERE'S TO THE ONES THAT CHANGE FOR THE BETTER :)
A little mom side-note: My friend just recently turned 21, and obviously she's pretty excited about this just like anyone would be. But the part that kind of irritated me was that she randomly texts me on a Wednesday and asks if I want to go out for drinks. Now I'm not 21, so I was like ... wtf? BUT what really pissed me off is that she KNOWS I'm a mom. It made me feel like ... What the hell kind of mom does she think I am if she thinks I can just drop everything and go drinking on a Wednesday?? I don't even WISH I had that kind of luxury. I HAVE a life, his name is Troy and I would trade anything anytime to spend one second with him. Period.
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